The Chair of the Putney School Board, and a member also of
the John Birch Society, pounded his fist on the table and roared, “We can’t
have Heidi Watts in our school because Heidi Watts is a Quaker and Quakers are
passive people.” It was 1966 and protest against the Vietnam War was heating
up. Corresponding rhetoric about the
threat of communism was also on the rise, and the two forces were being played
out over my contract renewal or non-renewal at the small elementary school in
Putney, Vermont. The audience was town’s
people, some of them my outraged supporters who, nonetheless, could not
suppress a smile at the confusion between pacifist and passivity. But they were
not all supporters, either that evening in the library or in a later meeting in
the school auditorium ,or in the letters to the editor and the General Store
conversations. Earlier in the month a large sign appeared over main street
saying, “Communists, aliens and pacifists, go home!". My husband was British, a registered alien, and I was a “passive” Quaker.
We must both be Communists.
Like most women of my generation and before, I had always
been an unconscious victim of discrimination and it was only out of the
emerging stridency of the 1960’s women’s movement that I began to understand
how much that had affected my life, but now, in the 1966 of Putney, Vermont, I
knew about discrimination. I knew that
when I went into the General Store conversations stopped. I knew that when I went into the post office there
was a label on my forehead which read “Communist”, and I knew that the children
who flooded, ambled, raced and dawdled into my classroom everyday were looking
at me not just as a teacher to be obeyed or evaded, a source of learning or
repression, but with the truths, lies and confusions of their parents. I knew some believed as their parents did–
they were, after all, aged 11 to 14, - but some were trying to reconcile what
was said about me to what they knew from their own experience. It was a small rural school and this was my
third year – I had taught the eighth graders English and Social Studies for
three years, a long time in a young life. There were only 11 students in the eighth
grade class, and as I learned later, in their 9th grade class at the
regional high school they represented the top and the bottom of the IQ scores
in a school of over 1200, but we had a good time together, and they seemed to
me to be making progress from wherever they were.
What was being said about me? I didn’t really say the Pledge of Allegiance,
I only mouthed it. I wore sandals to school.
I didn’t use textbooks. I went on peace marches. My husband wrote letters to the paper against
the war. We circulated petitions calling
for an end to war in Southeast Asia. To
war in Vietnam. To war. Period. And,
most telling of all, their kids liked school. If children liked school could
they be learning anything?.
When I was teaching in Putney there was a three-person
school board, each person serving a staggered three-year term. This meant that after every town meeting in
March, the majority on the Board could change. Contracts and contract renewals
were issued in February according to Union regulations. In February, 1966 two
teachers were not re-issued contracts, the principal and a woman who had been
teaching kindergarten for about five years. (She also went on peace marches.)
But they made a mistake, and by a 2-1 vote I was offered a contract. All would
have been well, except at Town meeting in March one of my supporters on the
Board was replaced by an opponent, and the Board promptly rescinded my
contract. This was illegal, and the
ensuring uproar divided the town between those who were anxious to get the
corrupting influence of Communist and Quakers out of the school and those who
either wanted to, at the least, abide by the contract rules, or who actively
supported the kind of education they thought we represented.
When the chair of the Board made his striking
denouncement at the meeting in the school library I was as surprised as anyone
else. I had no idea he felt so threatened. Two of his children were in my three-grade
span and our teacher/parent meetings had always been friendly. In the fall he
was one of the parents who volunteered to drive for the eighth grade’s annual
trip to visit the legislature. I sat
beside him in the front with three of the students in the back and we had a
companionable chat on the way up, about weather patterns, the well-drilling
business, (his own and others) and special school events. On the way home the conversation drifted to
national politics. It was clear we were on different sides in regard to the war
on Vietnam and I welcomed the opportunity to explain my position in a friendly
conversation with someone on the other side.
One of the students told me later that every time I said something about
the war he stepped harder on the accelerator.
It is true that we got home in record time.
As the controversy in Putney warmed up the Quakers sent a
small delegation to the superintendent to protest. I also met with the superintendent who said,
“If you make waves you will never get another job.” In April I met with the
head of the Union and he said the School Board’s behavior was illegal according
to school policy and civil rights legislation, and the Union Rep would speak
with the School Board. Two weeks later I got a letter from the Union saying
they had met with the Putney School Board and learned that my contract was not renewed:
because I had “poor parent-teacher relationships.” I took my case to the ACLU
lawyer in Brattleboro, a kindly gentleman lawyer, from one of Brattleboro’s
best families and friends with most of the others. He said that I did have a case and he guessed
he could represent me and what did I want?
Did I want my job back? Hardly! It was impossible to imagine teaching
again in that toxic environment. All I
wanted was justice. I said as soon as my contract was honored I would
resign. I never heard from him again.
All of the known avenues for redress seemed closed,
though I knew that I could – and should – challenge the report of the Teacher’s Union, and/or look for
another lawyer to represent me but I was confused, and procrastinated.
On a warm Saturday it mid-May my husband, Simon, brought
the lawn mower out from winter storage and discovered it was out of gas. He offered to take Richard,, with him to fill
the gas can and they went off together in our VW Van. Richard was six. When they returned, I was standing on the
front step. Richard bolted out of the van and clung to me. I looked over his head at Simon: “What
happened?”
He shrugged. “We
ran into some trouble. It’s OK.” Later he told me that that at the small gas
station on Main Street, a group of three or four men, on break from the paper mill
down the street, were hanging around the station buying cigarettes and drinking
beer. As Simon alighted from the van,
well decorated with anti-war bumper stickers, the men began muttering things
like “Hippies! Commies! We don’t need your kind around here. Go home Commies !
and as the slurs grew louder the red-headed one came up to the van, grabbed him
by the neck and pinned him to the van. Simon said, “I thought he was going to
hit me and those lines from the Aeneid flashed into my mind, ‘Having done what
man must they suffered what man can. ‘ “
Fortunately the owner of the station came out at that moment and the men
dispersed. It probably didn’t help that just up the road from the gas station a
group of back-to-the-landers were working in their newly purchased fields, on a
farm bordering the road into town, many of the women bare-breasted.
Memorial Day speeches that year were even more patriotic
than usual. A local sculptor displayed
his most recent piece, a large silver metal box with the stars and stripes
painted around the sides that revolved mechanically and mindlessly on it’s
shiny aluminum stand. The irony was lost
on the organizers. Richard marched
proudly through town at the head of the Memorial Day parade with a wooden gun
across one shoulder, and when asked for his favorite song suggested, “The Marine
Marching Hymn”. Pacifism was not contagious at home.
The next day at the Memorial Day picnic I was introduced
to a new family who had just moved to town, the Wilsons. Norman Wilson, the
newly appointed director of the Antioch/Putney Graduate School up on the hill,
said to me politely, “Do you get much involved in town politics?” and I replied
without thinking, “But I am town politics!”
On a Sunday night in early June, the Sunday night
preceding the last week of school before the summer vacation, all the teachers
and parents received a call from one of the school board members: the school
was closing and there would be no more classes until the fall. I don’t know
about the others, but I had a week of closing activities planned, ways in which
we would present and honor the work they had done, put a closing on various
projects, and celebrate the years we had spent together. We’d wrap up the school year, put a bow on it,
and say good-bye. I was devastated. There would be no closing, no chance to say
good-by, no resolution. A break as sharp and clean as the cut of a knife.
And then I caved.
I crumbled. I threw in the
towel. I cried uncle. I gave up. I was young, and untried by fire. I had been
brought up to avoid conflict at all costs.
In my family we didn’t fight, we went all silent and tight lipped, or
turned away to hide the tears of rage or rejection. I was a woman, I wanted to
be liked, and I needed to be liked. I couldn’t bear to be a pariah and the
object of town attention.
My husband did not have that problem, but in what I
thought was a synchronous identification of support he managed to hurt himself
in his shop – he made furniture. The Monday when I didn’t go to school a
chessboard went awry in the planer and he broke the bones in the back of his
left hand. He drove himself to the hospital and when he returned with his hand
in a cast, and his arm in sling, he had instructions to stay out to the shop
for two weeks. He got out of the car and said, “Doesn’t your sister have a house
in Nova Scotia?’ Within a week we were out of Putney, and when we returned
several weeks after that someone or something else had become town politics.
When school reopened in the fall only one of the eleven
teachers returned. Three of us had not been invited back, one resigned in
protest, one went on maternity leave, and the remainder had quietly found
themselves jobs elsewhere.
Some months later I had the opportunity to read a report
on the “brouhaha” as one reporter derisively described it, written as a senior
project by a student at The Putney School.
The student described what happened between March and June, and
concluded that the conflict was not actually about the corrupting influence of
communists on young minds, but about values.
Some of the townspeople, he said, mainly the families who had farmed or
worked in Putney for generations, wanted their children to carry on their
values. They wanted them to be
respectful of authority, to dress “appropriately”, to learn what they had
learned as they had learned it in school, (not generally described as “fun”), and to think as they did. However, some of the families, many of them
representing the influx of flat landers into Vermont, and an educated
professional class, wanted their children to think critically and to question
authority, or at least to think for themselves – and if their kids liked to go
to school, all the better. It wasn’t specifically about the war, he said, it
was a question of values.
This was the sixties, the time of a great awakening and a
great unraveling in American society.
The sturdy conservatism of landed Vermont farmers, and an underclass of
small town factory workers or farm hands was threatened by a wave of
immigration from a mixed assortment of “others”, “flatlanders”, “people from away”
and romantic naturalists who wanted to “go back to the land” as homesteaders,
anarchists and artists. It was too much
change too fast for the long time residents.
What the Putney School student didn’t write, but I would write now is
that the arrogance, the assumption that our way is the right way, and the
failure to see how “those people” might think or feel, was not the prerogative
of the Chair of the schoolboard or the “rednecks” at the gas
station. What we actually had in common was a lack of respect or openness to
ideas or values different from our own. Over time and with a good dose of small
town interaction we might have developed enough common ground to be able to
accept, or at least tolerate each other’s differences but in 1966 there was too
much change too fast, and not just in Putney, Vermont.
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You go Ayah!!
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