It was 1955. I had traveled from Boston, two nights and
three days sitting up on the train, for my first teaching job at a select
school for young ladies in Tacoma, Washington. Although I had had no courses in
education or any other kind of teacher training – my degree was in English
literature – I had been hired to teach the third grade. The Annie Wright
Seminary served the daughters of the educated upper classes in Tacoma and up
and down the West Coast. Although there
were the famous boy’s boarding schools: Groton, Exeter, Choate, few
were for girls and most were on the East Coast.
The school had originally been only for girls from elite families who
boarded during the school year and just went home for holidays. However, Annie
Wright had just opened an elementary day school for younger girls from the good
families of Tacoma. That was why I was hired, a month after graduation from
college, to be the third grade teacher. I was 22.
A large ornate gate opened on to a small campus of green
lawns, stately trees and bushes which flowered almost constantly in the damp,
moderate and forgiving climate of the Pacific Northwest. The school and campus
were completely enclosed by a large attractive ironwork fence. The buildings
themselves were of a solid red brick, containing all the classrooms and
offices, sleeping and eating areas. An elegant cloister ran from the main
building to another solid red brick building, the chapel.
Annie Wright was run by the Episcopalian diocese of Washington
and the school took very seriously their responsibility for the moral and
religious upbringing of the young girls entrusted to their care. For the girls there was compulsory chapel
twice a day, and we stood to say grace before meals. They wore uniforms, rose
and curtsied whenever an adult came into the room, and addressed us
respectfully by our last names. We teachers wore dresses or
skirts with stockings and “good” shoes. I can still hear the
wavering chorus of my third graders when I came into the classroom as they
rose, dipped and said in one singsong voice, “Good Morning, Miss Walter.” The older
girls were required to wear a hat and white gloves when going off the school grounds
and they had to be accompanied by a chaperone. Most of the faculty were good Episcopalians
and had been with the school for many years but there were four of us, new and
restive young female teachers from other parts of the country, all living
together in what had once been the servant’s quarters on the fourth floor. Miss
Jenkins, the head mistress, had recruited us from the best colleges in the East.
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After almost a year of compulsory morning chapel, rising
to sing, kneeling to pray, standing to recite, after almost a year of the debate
which raged in my mind as we recited the apostle’s creed: “I believe in God,
the Father almighty”? Do I? What does
that mean? “And in Jesus, his only begotten son” – do I believe in Jesus? If I
don’t believe in the divinity of Jesus can I keep saying this? What is the
significance of “only begotten? “ Can you believe in God but but not in Jesus,
and as for the Holy Spirit?! Well, actually I found that easier than the other
two – more abstract, more subject to my own interpretation. After a year of that daily debate a friend
took me to a Quaker Meeting in Seattle and I felt I had come home. The Quakers
never professed to anything, though they did ask searching
questions, which gave some clue to what we ought to be doing. They wanted me to
know that I and everyone else had “that of God” in us, and after that you were
pretty much on your own. Questioning was no longer heretical – it was in!
Every Sunday morning I slipped out through the iron gates and walked quietly through the suburbs of Tacoma to the small modest home of Clara and Stanley Shaw who were very old (about sixty). The other attenders or members included a middle aged couple, a family with three children, and a smattering of other “old” folks. I was far from home, on my first job, earnest and wet behind the ears. - They welcomed me with warmth and grave courtesy. About six months later later a young man, about my age, a Negro in a soldier’s uniform, began to attend our Meetings. The good Quakers ignored the uniform and treated him with a similar warmth and courtesy in spite of the historic Quaker peace testimony: “ Do you abjure war and fighting with any outward weapons whatsoever?” I had never seen a Negro in Tacoma, other than the porters on the train when I arrived from Boston. I cannot remember seeing any Negroes in the small New England towns where I grew up. But there was an army base in Tacoma, and, as I learned later, a whole colony of Negro families and workers around the base.
Vergil Patterson – or was it Vergil Petterson? I am not
sure. He sat with us in Meeting for Worship for nearly three months
before he asked me whether I would like to go out on a date with him. We had
chatted at potlucks or in the social spaces before or after Meeting but I knew
almost nothing about him – our conversations were polite and cautious – but I
saw no reason to refuse, so I said yes. He picked me up in a taxi
outside the gate at Annie Wright and we drove through a part of town which was
unfamiliar to me, not that I could see much more of Tacoma than one was likely
to see chaperoning a group of giggling, white-gloved teenagers. When we entered
the movie theater, which seemed enormous to me, I was taken aback to see an
ocean of black people. I was the only white person in the room. I thought it was strange that all these Negroes
would choose to go to the same movie theater. I suppose I knew about
segregation but that was some bad thing they did down south, maybe in
Mississippi. I tried to look natural and to conceal my extreme
self-consciousness, glad that we would be mostly
in the dark. I was aware
that the other people in the audience were sending us covert
glances but trying not to stare.
After the first date Vergil and I continued to be
friendly, but formal. I think we may have gone out a few more times, but there
was no connection between this off-shoot of my Sunday mornings and the lively
social life I was enjoying on Saturday nights. With the other young
teachers on the fourth floor we went to the “Y” on Saturday night to meet other
young people, men in particular. It never occurred to me that Vergil might be
interested in being a part of that wild partying crowd – twenty-something year
olds kicking up their heels, and eyeing each other speculatively while
we danced and drank. Sometimes the party moved to my little house just
off the grounds of the Annie Wright Seminary when we wanted to make a night
of it.
Vergil was formal, serious, and careful. I imagine I
responded in kind. I also responded, as my mother would have advised, by
inviting him “home” for dinner. It was the “right” thing to do. If a young man asked a young woman out a few times she, in
turn, invited him home for dinner, but
home in this case was the formal dining room at the Annie Wright Seminary. The
girls sat at assigned tables with a teacher at the head and we “dressed” for
dinner. We stood behind our chairs in the dining room until the headmistress
came in and was seated and no one left until she had finished.
I had just enough sense to know that I should ask
permission first. I made an appointment to see Miss Jenkins. I knocked, with some
trepidation on the big carved wooden door to her office,
and then went in. She was sitting alone, at a big desk, with the sun coming in
through a bank of windows behind her. She smiled and invited
me to warmly to come in and sit down. After I few pleasantries
I explained why I was there, “I h’ve met a man at church
and I would like to invite him to dinner.”
She smiled benevolently
and said ,“That would be just fine.”
I went on. “But I
thought you ought to know he is a Negro.” There was a small but perceptible
pause in which, I imagine, the reaction of her father, the Bishop, the Board of
Trustees, the parents, and the reputation of the school passed through her
mind, and then she looked at me directly and said in a level voice: “That will
be just fine.”
Vergil came to dinner. Everyone was very polite. The
girls tried not to stare. He may have been their first Negro
too. We met him a few more times at
Quaker Meeting and then I left for the summer and his unit moved somewhere else
and we did not try to keep in touch. I thought of him
occasionally, and wondered
what happened to him, until, a few years
later, I saw,
or think I saw, a brief notice in a Quaker Journal
about a workcamp in Chicago to be led by a Vergil
Patterson.
It was 1955. Eisenhower was President and Nixon his
Vice-President. The country was not at war, though the seeds of war were
germinating. Eisenhower sent the first American advisors to Viet Nam, and the
Pentagon launched the first nuclear submarine. Electricity was generated
commercially for the first time by an atomic power plant. Bill Gates and Steve
Jobs were born. In January, Marian Anderson became the first black person to
sing at the Metropolitan Opera House, and in August, Emmet Till was killed for
speaking to a white woman in Money, Mississippi. In December, Rosa Parks
refused to move to the back of the bus. I was only dimly aware of current
events. At Annie Wright we seldom saw a newspaper and I did not have a radio.
My friends were talking about other things. The tectonic plates in America’s
racial geography were shifting and I, a naïve particle on the crest of a wave,
discovered myself carried along by the undercurrent.
=======================================================================\Tacoma, Washington 1955
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